Quality of a leader is reflected in the standards they set for themselves
Rain & Roses
Ecstasy
Ecstasy
Your breath became a sweetness,
through every moment a breeze of ecstasy.
Wafting across my cheek, anointing anxious lips,
excruciatingly long moments waltzing in three-quarter time,
your arms seemed eons away, mine unable to reach you
across a blue-haze horizon and yet that breath,
that wondrous delight hinting of sweet clover
and fields of lavender remains forever,
embedded in my memory.
BulletProof Heart
BULLET PROOF
Every word you ever said,
was like a bullet to the head,
all thats left, is pain and stress,
I wish you nothing but the best,
you turned your back and walked away,
no matter what I tried to say,
I am not here just for your use,
my heart wont break, its bullet proof,
you turn around, and change your name,
try so hard to drown the pain,
nothing lost is nothing gained,
so tired of giving, I feel so drained.
so consumed by my infernal rage,
loving you was like a plague.
By Devi Ramsaran
Ā© 2010 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
My Heartbeat
My Heartbeat
You are fading slowly
Into a place of non existent
Iāve been waiting for this day to finally say
Iāve accepted the facts and from this day forward
I will respect your decision
The restless nights youāve given to me
The endless tears which flows
I know that growing in this pain will only take me into a different world
A world of danger and hate
Where lying is just a āthing!ā
Where flowers bloom without the use of water
Rather it survives on chemicals created by the hands of a man
A world where confusion and resentment devours your soul
Where bitterness and anger takes control
So I would rather be free
Allowing you make all those decisions for me
Iām tired and frustrated
I canāt seem to please anyone
Itās a battlefield in my mind
No one will ever know
I speak out in anger
I speak out in fear
But not once did I mean those hurtful words I say
Although this may hurt me in the end
Sleep I will finally know
Us womenĀ
To us beautiful women Cheers
We carry weight on our shoulder
Inside our wombs
On our hearts
And still we don’t know where the strength comes from
But it does
It is because God has made women to populate the universe
With their love, their care, their knowledge
And the best of all
Children
We are all the same women carrying similar struggles and walking different paths
Yet we all have some things in common
And that is something which intrigued us or pained us
We all have something to say
So let’s free our minds
Uplift our hearts and dedicate our energy into turning those bad into good
Venting
Let it out
In ways that words can hurt ones soul
Breathe
As if it was the last breath you were able to take
Let God flow through you and into those words
Which helps us over come whatever it is of hurt
And then spread the sunshine and bring out the rainbows with a little love and laughter
Because after every storm
Comes the calm
Talking to the wallsĀ
Today I am your everything Tomorrow I am your whore
Few days later
We’re arguing over a story about me in which you over heard
I wonder who am I to you that you
You seem so very distant
One minute I am right
The next I am the blame
I’m tired of the constant abuse of being called names
If being with me is so bad
Then why constantly be here making me sad
Why not leave
Turn your back and walk away
I’m afraid now if you do stay
Sometimes I wonder where I would have been today if I choose to never be with you
I’m not complaining, I’m just hurt
It’s a constant battle in my mind
What is it that I am worth ?
We know not of what tomorrow may bring
For today I need to know where is it that I stand?
Am I your lady or just someone who pleasures your burning desires?
Am I your Queen before any other?
Am I lacking beauty within or is it the condition of my skin?
Am I trash or dirt in the ground?
Am I worthy of a crown?
I know nothing because you don’t seem to speak
And when you do
It’s never good things to me
You complain how much I am such a horrible woman
Yet
I still work, wash, cook and clean.
I wonder where you will ever find another
6 long years
And still I can’t become your wife
No proposal
Not even a conversation
About one day of being your bride
No romantic dinners
No casual talks
It’s only constant problems which we discuss
I’m tired too
But I try my best to listen
To speak
To reason a situation
And understand on your part
Well I myself am tired
And need someone who can understand too
Someone who once listened to me
Cared for me
Loved me immensely
And treated me with respect
That someone was you
Now I’m all alone
I’m tired too
Walking away will be a better option
Because speaking to the walls is my conclusion
By Darshini Devi Ramsaran
Ā© 2017 Darshini Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
A Woman Struggles
A Woman Struggles…
I cook, I wash, I clean
As I am a wife
I make love as a woman, not a child
I play with children as if I’ve had some of my very own
I work like man, doing things many women shouldn’t
I’m not lazy
I enjoy intellectual conversations
I rather be home playing with makeup, cleaning my house, watching movies, or staying in the kitchen all day
I enjoy life for whatever curve ball it throws my way
I am not perfect
I have flaws too
I know there are times I feel the beauty in someone and I know when I don’t
I feel just like you do
I hurt the same
I say things to defame your name
Because I’m angry at the things you say
I don’t want to fuss over words
However you give me no choice
I cry the same salty tears when I am broken in two
I wish you’d understand how much I care and
How much I love you
with
every cell in my body
Your words have destroyed me
Consuming my soul with regrets
And hate
You’ve pushed me far
Beyond your imagination
And yet you continue to test my emotions
I guess some things are blinded by the eyes of those who can’t seem to see past their nose
They push those who love deeply into a place of non existence
Hurting those who care for them
Because of their own demons inside of them
And when reality hits them in the face
A great woman as myself
Would have walked away
Knowing her worth
With her head held high
Her shoulders straight
Her face with a smile
And a heart that’s willing to challenge any dare at any pace
She will soar above the highest mountains
Loving stronger than ever before
And slowly I am beginning to realize my very own worth
By Darshini Devi Ramsaran 04/02
Ā© 2017 Darshini Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
Beautiful MonsterĀ
Ooh beautiful monster I smile as your eyes pierce through my soul
I embrace your grasp for they know not of what I’ve ever felt before
Devour into my sweet soul as I smile into slumber
Rather than in tears
Weak and brittle
Through a dark cold grave
Beautiful monster you put no more fear in me
As I’ve conquered in my mind
My own destiny
Behind closed walls
I allowed you to manipulate my emotions
Letting you get the best of me
Beautiful monster
Please for once do not be naive
If you allow me to awake
Please remember the sunrise brings in a new day
And your soul will eventually fade away
Unable to attack
So devour into my sweet soul as you wish while I drift into
Emotion less
Where I don’t care what tomorrow brings
Wether I’m here or there.
The wings of strength will continue to grow
Detaching my soul from yours
Unfortunately for you
It is now sunrise
And I sit Still
while the birds chirp
Through my bedroom window
I’ve survived
The brutal nightmare
It was all just a dream
My beautiful monster
I wish you were here to see how long it has taken me to over come my fears
To let go of my past
And light my own path
I wish you knew how hard the journey was
The battle fields which I’ve walked
I wish you knew things that can change that heart of yours
And see that one can change for the better part
But this is only a wish
Some comes true
And some just fades with time
I love you beautiful monster
But you’ve ruled my soul enough
I yearn now to escape forever from your hands which hurt
And still I manage to smile through it all
Faded monster
Change ur ways
Or be a part of the past forever
And remain where you belong
Through the darkest of tunnels
The shallowest of graves
I pray you find comfort
Of knowing I am not the disgrace
It was you who has turned
Silly love kissesĀ
I am me
I am meLove me
Hate me
Accept me
Deny me
I don’t care
I refuse to change the woman I am to please another because that would just mean
I wouldn’t be REAL
If you asked me
I will tell you no lie
If you hurt me
I will shed a few tears
Blow some steam out
But eventually
I get over it
If you come at me with the constant bullshit
Then trust
I will crush it
If you got to know me
And end up betraying me
I will take revenge
And in the end just know that a friend like me
Was one of a kind
That would sacrifice my life to save yours
So trust
Is something so real and deep that if it’s lost
There’s nothing that would ever bring that back
No matter years of trying to prove
That of your worth
No matter how sincere you may be this time around
I will always look at you that 1% less
because
at one point betrayed is what happened to me
So yes I sleep with one eye opened
And it’s because of the bullshit I’ve been through once before
No one knows how far I’ve come
The things I’ve done
The places I’ve been
The things I’ve seen
The situations I’ve ended up in
The pain I’ve caused
The hearts I’ve helped
The spirits I’ve lifted
The shit I do to help others through
The hustle I find
The every day grind
The memories I make
The mistakes I’ve made
So when I say this
Please don’t take it the wrong way
But please I beg
Don’t fuck with my emotions
And I won’t fuck with yours
DONT TALK SHIT
IF YOU HAVENT WALKED MY SHOES
DONT JUDGE ME
BECAUSE I WOULD NEVER JUDGE YOU!!!
I have flaws and so do you
I’m not perfect in your eyes
But trust there’s at least one person I know that sees no flaws in me no matter what I am or what I do and that’s the almighty
Lord
No one knows how much I’ve cried
How hard it was for me to watch someone die
No one understands how much I hurt
But yet
I smile
So before you say YOU KNOW ME
THINK TWICE
DO YOU REALLY???
I am me
Ā© 2015 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
I guess I am that blank page
I guess I am that blank page
I guess I am that blank page
Skipped past me ever so quickly
The grasp of uncertainty
The wind blew it drastically
Turned over
And laid face down
I am that blank page
And the reason of his frown
I wonder to myself
Where or why
And was I all along in that creative denial
I am that blank page
Clustered between the others
Fighting for air
Yet
Thrown to side just like the others
I guess I am that blank page
Rejected so many times
It’s became immune to my system
And the out burst of feverish chills down my spine
No longer made me quiver
But I thought to myself again
I am that blank page
No ink would bother to stay
As each letter that has been written
magically disappears
I am that blank page
He turned over
With no cares of my feelings upon
His broad
strong shoulders
I guess I am
That blank page
Who curls at the end
In hopes of the human iris to be in search
Standing out and pleading
For attention that is
Yet
I still remain
Upon the beginning of first to very last chapter
That blank page
Fragile heart torn
Blank pages
Scorn
I guess I am that blank page
No one
ever thought of
November 14,2015
I guess I am that Blank Page
Ā© 2015 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
RelationshipsĀ
To those relationships that are in a struggle Please do listen
And take into consideration
Sometimes the simple things can be painful
But to listen of its reasons as to why things occur
Disagreement doesn’t mean he/she
Doesn’t love you
It means the growth
Of life
A process
And a life filled with happiness and sad
In order to love
We must all know what hate is
To know happy
We must know sad
To know rain
We will one day experience the sunshine
As life
We must know what is death
The cycle of life and love
Accept it and choose to is two different things
We choose to love
Or hate
Inside my mindĀ
Lies after liesĀ
This womanĀ
A business woman with lots of potential and
sophistication
A mother who nourishes her children with love
A wife of loyalty
A sister to any and
A best friend to many
Marian Martins
Written by: Devi Ramsaran
Don’t tell me you love meĀ
Don’t tell me you love me if you’re not sincere
For a lie so strong can bring on a new fear
Fear to love
Fear to be loved
Fear to ever love again
It can cause my fragile heart to tear, break or bend
So when I put all of my trust deep within you
Please don’t tell me
You love me
Unless you truly do š
My heart has no FearĀ
LOVEāS HOLDING.
A Thousand Shadows
Waves of disruption, a thousand shadows spun another tear ran dry, Into the chasms of despair as here another piece of my soul again dies, My sanctuary dwelling here in the in-between in a waterfall of emotion, Leaving emptiness in its path where these dreams play in slow motion. For in this realm a grasp into the past, that won’t still my hand nor heart, This wingless ride through the years, slighted whispers bleeding from breath, By Devi Ramsaran Ā© 2015 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved) |
Loves flameĀ

By Devi Ramsaran
Ā© 2015 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)
Entangled ā¤ļø stringsĀ
Entangled ā¤ļø Strings
Drifting Dream through time and space.
Distance keeps us apart, out of place.
~~~ Yet ~~~
My web is spun with lovers twine.
~~~ Pulling ~~~
Reminding that you are mine.
~~~ Distance ~~~
Valley, mountains, roaring sea
Clouds of the night
~~~ Float ~~~
Between us in a starlit night.
~~~ Visions ~~~
Of us I send into your
Midnight Dream.
~~~ While ~~~
I wish upon the stars vividly seen.
Knowing you would never forget me.
~~~ Peaceful ~~~
I retreat into slumber.
No sound of thunder.
~~~Content ~~~
My Lovers Twine
Shall keep you
~~~ Mine ~~~
pain and its facts behind it shows we have emotions and that’s something to still be grateful forĀ
Chin up and know you are blessed to understand the meaning of pain
It shows your heart is as pure as the rain falling from the sky
untouched not knowing of touch until it hits the ground
In other words
It’s ok to be down and sad
It shows that we still have life
Because we are able to have emotions
Many aren’t so blessed
No matter the pain
Remember what ever you’re going through is to strengthen you
Praying you over come this pain with a head held high
And clasped hands to the almighty
š
Optical illusions
See me here,
I live a life as all do
In here an insect of life’s intuition
The threads of my eyes slowly release
I fall deep into dreams
The inner state of less confusion
From the outer state of resistance
Dwelling in the simplicity of logic
Yet poisoned by human existence
And the double vision of the conscious mind
I’d rather be a gust of wind
Moving things before me
Not having features
But become what is carried
Not having a voice
But echo what hasĀ passed
Not feeling pain
But able to give sensation
In motionless time my life evolves
I’m bound to a simple destiny
I cannot yet define in words
The threads of my face tighten
And reveal no tale
But that of which in reality is sleep
No expression can manifest the words
In my lifetime I wish to write
And no words can explain my expression
For when the soul is released
The solution can’t be resisted
But at this time all is unexplained
For I have not yet existed
Ā© 2000 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)