I am me 

  

I am meLove me 

Hate me 

Accept me

Deny me

I don’t care
 I refuse to change the woman I am to please another because that would just mean 

I wouldn’t be REAL
If you asked me 

I will tell you no lie
If you hurt me 

I will shed a few tears 

Blow some steam out

But eventually 

I get over it 
If you come at me with the constant bullshit 

Then trust

I will crush it 
If you got to know me

And end up betraying me

I will take revenge 
And in the end just know that a friend like me 

Was one of a kind

That would sacrifice my life to save yours 
So trust 

Is something so real and deep that if it’s lost 

There’s nothing that would ever bring that back

No matter years of trying to prove

That of your worth

No matter how sincere you may be this time around

I will always look at you that 1% less 

because 

at one point betrayed is what happened to me 

So yes I sleep with one eye opened 

And it’s because of the bullshit I’ve been through once before
No one knows how far I’ve come

The things I’ve done

The places I’ve been

The things I’ve seen

The situations I’ve ended up in

The pain I’ve caused

The hearts I’ve helped

The spirits I’ve lifted

The shit I do to help others through

The hustle I find

The every day grind 

The memories I make

The mistakes I’ve made 
So when I say this

Please don’t take it the wrong way
But please I beg

Don’t fuck with my emotions 

And I won’t fuck with yours

DONT TALK SHIT

IF YOU HAVENT WALKED MY SHOES

DONT JUDGE ME 

BECAUSE I WOULD NEVER JUDGE YOU!!!
I have flaws and so do you

I’m not perfect in your eyes

But trust there’s at least one person I know that sees no flaws in me no matter what I am or what I do and that’s the almighty 

Lord 
No one knows how much I’ve cried

How hard it was for me to watch someone die 

No one understands how much I hurt

But yet 

I smile 

So before you say YOU KNOW ME

THINK TWICE 

DO YOU REALLY???  

I am me 
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I guess I am that blank page

 

 I guess I am that blank page 

I guess I am that blank page

Skipped past me ever so quickly 

The grasp of uncertainty 

The wind blew it drastically 

Turned over 

And laid face down


I am that blank page

And the reason of his frown


I wonder to myself

Where or why 

And was I all along in that creative denial 


I am that blank page

Clustered between the others

Fighting for air 

Yet 

Thrown to side just like the others

I guess I am that blank page


Rejected so many times

It’s became immune to my system

And the out burst of feverish chills down my spine

No longer made me quiver 

But I thought to myself again

I am that blank page


No ink would bother to stay

As each letter that has been written 

magically disappears


I am that blank page 

He turned over 

With no cares of my feelings upon 

His broad 

strong shoulders


I guess I am 

That blank page


Who curls at the end

In hopes of the human iris to be in search 

Standing out and pleading 

For attention that is 


Yet 


I still remain 

Upon the beginning of first to very last chapter 

That blank page 


Fragile heart torn 

Blank pages 

Scorn 


I guess I am that blank page 

No one 

ever thought of 






November 14,2015


I guess I am that Blank Page 

© 2015 Devi Ramsaran (All rights reserved)

Relationships 

To those relationships that are in a struggle Please do listen 

And take into consideration 

Sometimes the simple things can be painful 

But to listen of its reasons as to why things occur 

Disagreement doesn’t mean he/she 

Doesn’t love you 

It means the growth 

Of life 

A process 

And a life filled with happiness and sad
In order to love 

We must all know what hate is

To know happy 

We must know sad

To know rain 

We will one day experience the sunshine 
As life 

We must know what is death 
The cycle of life and love 

Accept it and choose to is two different things 
We choose to love 

Or hate 

 

Inside my mind 

I wish that God can show you my heart and allow you to feel every beat of it 
So you can see
And feel
The love I hold so deep 
For you to have a clear understanding as to why marriage is so pure in my eyes 
And that every beat of my heart is because of you
Even when we fight 
But not everyone has a poetic mind 
As I do 
Not everyone sees through eyes of love 
Not everyone understands how to care 
But
I do 
And 
I will continue to love and care for u beyond your imagination 
And pray that one day you change your mind and kneel in front of me 
With hands held out high 
Proposing to love me till eternity 
Causing me to shiver 
And 
As my smile lights up the sky and my eyes shine through the darkest of night 
With my heart skipping beats 
Like a child jumping through puddles in the streets 
The passion inside 
Ignites 
My soul turns over 
Like the lashing loud sounds of thunder 
And the sun bursting through the clouded sky 
A feeling of complete satisfaction 
And 
Finally my answer 
Yes 
I’m willing to be your wonderful wife 
Through the storms and the calm 
For now I exist as is 
While 
my mind creates 
It’s own illusions 
Imagine 
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Lies after lies 

Lies after lies 
I hate
Wishing so badly I was her 
Then marriage in your eyes wouldn’t be a mistake
Lies after lies 
I live 
Pretending that you would propose one day 
Having hope in my heart no matter what you say 
Lies after lies 
I tell myself 
That maybe just maybe 
You would see from the angle where my mind stands 
And love with marriage isn’t just a pen in hand and a paper on a table 
Lies after lies
I tell myself that it could have been me instead of her
Had I only just
say the word
But in denial I lived 
That I could have not met your standards
Yet on a mental note 
Had I go with my heart 
Then life for us would be magical 
Never parting 
Lies after lies 
I imagine us holding hands as you vow to honor and protect 
Love and respect 
Guide and care 
For me 
Until the end of time 
Lies after lies 
And then the feeling just dissipates 
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This woman 

A business woman with lots of potential and 

sophistication

A mother who nourishes her children with love 

A wife of loyalty 

A sister to any and 

A best friend to many 

  

Marian Martins 

Written by: Devi Ramsaran

Don’t tell me you love me 


  

Don’t tell me you love me if you’re not sincere 

For a lie so strong can bring on a new fear 

Fear to love 

Fear to be loved

Fear to ever love again 

It can cause my fragile heart to tear, break or bend 

So when I put all of my trust deep within you 

Please don’t tell me

You love me 

Unless you truly do 💔

My heart has no Fear 

   

 LOVE’S HOLDING.


Is love, in aberration confusing
That it steals from a mind’s daily routine
And is more to blind emotion’s choosing
So only what colours the heart is seen
How might a mind full in love concentrate
On daily functions, deliberations
And how would a heart, so held, operate
Its passion losing mind’s information
Sooner would I a mind to conjecture
That all thought is constructive in effect
Yet, to love’s hold, is my mind in stricture
And I am lost to all clear thought’s select
Should I think on love with an affection
Then is love not to a heart’s connection

By: Devi 

A Thousand Shadows

  

  

Waves of disruption, a thousand shadows spun another tear ran dry,
Into the chasms of despair as here another piece of my soul again dies,
My sanctuary dwelling here in the in-between in a waterfall of emotion,
Leaving emptiness in its path where these dreams play in slow motion.

For in this realm a grasp into the past, that won’t still my hand nor heart,
As here the shadows consume, forsakes my hopelessness and sets apart,
Leaving me in the core of the past, in thy essence here in a blissful retreat, 
As here pulling together the torn heartstrings between our souls in reprieve.

This wingless ride through the years, slighted whispers bleeding from breath,
Grow more distraught between the muse, keep in the darkness leaving no rest,
Bounty of hopelessness enters the fold as the dreams escape through windows,
These shadows my emerald storms, for without them I stay in a state of limbo

By  Devi Ramsaran 

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Loves flame 


   

 

  


Love, with passion set aflame
Burning deep from inside
Though the eyes of your love 
Let a flaming fire start
With a penetrating touch upon the flesh
Feel the steamy, sizzling kisses upon your neck
As passion consumes this moment 
In time…
To leave lingering memories 
In grasp of gasping breathes…
And mesmerizing scents of love
Sparked by a kiss, upon your lips
And the depth I seen in your eyes…
A moment in time,
My breath whisked away
Left breathless, my heart pounding
Entwined forever in my mind…
Your love turned passions ablaze
Deep inside my very being
Your touch etched upon my flesh
Burning desires 
And you walked away
Peering back at me
With a smile
As I lay upon the floor
With pleading eyes
Bathed in your love…
Conquered…
By burning desires
~*~

By  Devi Ramsaran 

© 2015 Devi Ramsaran  (All rights reserved)

Entangled ❤️ strings 

  

Entangled ❤️ Strings

Drifting Dream through time and space.
Distance keeps us apart, out of place. 
~~~ Yet ~~~
My web is spun with lovers twine.
~~~ Pulling ~~~
Reminding that you are mine.
~~~ Distance ~~~
Valley, mountains, roaring sea
Clouds of the night
~~~ Float ~~~
Between us in a starlit night.
~~~ Visions ~~~
Of us I send into your
Midnight Dream.
~~~ While ~~~
I wish upon the stars vividly seen.
Knowing you would never forget me.
~~~ Peaceful ~~~
I retreat into slumber.
No sound of thunder. 
~~~Content ~~~
My Lovers Twine
Shall keep you
~~~ Mine ~~~


pain and its facts behind it shows we have emotions and that’s something to still be grateful for 

Chin up and know you are blessed to understand the meaning of pain 

It shows your heart is as pure as the rain falling from the sky 

untouched not knowing of touch until it hits the ground 

In other words 

It’s ok to be down and sad 

It shows that we still have life 

Because we are able to have emotions 

Many aren’t so blessed 

No matter the pain 

Remember what ever you’re going through is to strengthen you 

Praying you over come this pain with a head held high 

And clasped hands to the almighty 

🙏

Optical illusions

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Optical illusion

See me here,
I live a life as all do
In here an insect of life’s intuition
The threads of my eyes slowly release
I fall deep into dreams
The inner state of less confusion
From the outer state of resistance
Dwelling in the simplicity of logic
Yet poisoned by human existence
And the double vision of the conscious mind

I’d rather be a gust of wind
Moving things before me
Not having features
But become what is carried
Not having a voice
But echo what has passed
Not feeling pain
But able to give sensation

In motionless time my life evolves
I’m bound to a simple destiny
I cannot yet define in words
The threads of my face tighten
And reveal no tale
But that of which in reality is sleep
No expression can manifest the words
In my lifetime I wish to write
And no words can explain my expression

For when the soul is released
The solution can’t be resisted
But at this time all is unexplained
For I have not yet existed

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