Ruffling through some papers late at night
Stumbled across things I wrote so many ages back
I decided to write
Relieving my heart aches
That time I held my knees close to my stomach and hands crossed in front hiding my tummy in hopes of no one hearing
The grumbling sounds that beats against the walls of my stomach
It’s like something inside playing connect the dots
Trying to find it’s way to a perfect spot
To settle in and eat away at my flesh
From the inside out
The pains of being raped
That time I bled through my jeans
And the memories of the sounds of sirens
Entered my brains
Like a melody stuck on replay
As the ambulance arrives and two men approached
“Ma’am, are you conscious?”
That was the last words I heard
My mind blanked out
My heart rate slowed
I was in a shock
My body cold
My veins swollen from the alcohol in my system
See, I’m a diabetic
And too much sugar can put me into a coma
All that night I remembered
As they took me away
Into a safe place
Hand cuffs on the bed rails
As the detectives carried on with questions of problems I may have
Things or descriptions
Anything that can help him to catch the rapist of a twelve year old girl
My mind remained blank
My lips sealed
My eyes drifted off into a deep slumber
My pride was ripped out my soul
My dignity was shattered
My life was deleted at 12 years old
I became the blank pages in the entire book
By Darshini Devi Ramsaran
