Letter to my boyfriend mother
My dearest mother in law
On Mothers Day
Every one wished me a Happy Mothers Day
And I thought of you
How much you have done to hurt me
I’ve shed one too many tears
In hopes of one day holding my very own child dear to my heart
But you
You have snatched that joy inside of me
Before I can give my child the opportunity to see the world with its own naked eyes
You have destroyed my peace
You took my smiles and turned them into frowns
You made me sad
When you came here I treated you as a Queen
Attended to your needs with whatever you desired
Gave our bed for you to rest on
Allowed you to take full control over my home
And now
Today of all days
I have regrets
It is because of you
I hope when you’re reading this letter your heart doesn’t burn
Your body doesn’t freeze
You soul doesn’t ache
But if it does
Then so be it
I just pray you know how to deal with it if and when that time comes
You have birthed your son
Today he is a part of my life
I asked humbly for your blessings as he did too
Today he is willing to forgive you
When I have forgiven you years ago
Not once have I destroyed you with words
But the names you have called me is words I’ve never even heard
You were like a mother to me in my eyes
And in yours I was a disgrace to become your sons wife
I would have protected you the best I could
Given you my home and let you live
Worked my bones to its very end
And pray that God keeps you safe from anything
As a child I was taught to respect those who are eldest
I was told to be humble no matter how much and how hard it gets
I did my very best
Today of all days I held close to my heart
The regrets of being so humble
Because of you
My universe is of nonexistent
Because of you I gave up on love
Because of you I have pains today
And now because of you
Your very own son has stayed away from you
Not once have I made him choose
He knew in his heart you have done nothing for us than abuse me with hurtful words
He knew you sent people to have me beaten up
He knew our lives was at peace until you came here and destroyed it
What mother leaves her son all alone In a different yet difficult world because of her own selfishness?
What mother snatches a child from another woman’s womb?
What mother wishes her children bad?
I can’t seem to understand why do you think you have it all figured out
When even that same son aches for the love from his mother
How do I stomach the pain that you have taken away from me
When you yourself is in pain because your son has denied you today?
I wonder now
How do you feel to destroy me and in the process you destroyed yourself?
I’ve done great deeds more than you can imagine
I’ve sheltered those who had no home
I’ve cared for those who had no one
I’ve loved for those who has been abandoned
I’ve been a mother, a friend, a sister and a loyal woman to your son
I’ve respected you when you degraded me
I’ve loved and cared for your son
I’ve done the best I could
Today
I’ve done enough
I pray that today
My last words to you shall embed itself into your soul making you restless forever until you crawl on your knees and beg for my forgiveness
The next time you dare to step in my path
Thunder will roll
Lightning will strike you
For I am more loved than you can ever imagine
I am a child of God
Who deserve to be happy
Who deserves to be respected
Who deserves love like everyone else in this world
God is my witness
I have not once disrespected you
I’ve had
Many opportunities to send you to jail
But I kept shut
Today I will no longer be a victim to you or anyone
I’m stronger and more powerful
Because God has mended my broken heart
My child is with the angels rejoicing
That he or she is proud to once be a part of me
The next time you dare attack me with your words or your physical being
I hope
For every thing you have done to me
I pray it comes back to you twice or ten times more
Seven years is long enough
Now I am putting my foot down
I pray that God be with you through those times
And I pray you accept him and he
shines some light into your dark heart!
Because if you don’t
Then you haven’t yet felt real PAIN
I WILL REMAIN HUMBLE KNOWING MY GOD HAS MY FEET GUIDING ME THROUGH TRIALS AFTER TRIALS LIGHTING UP MY PATH
With his blessings
As his child I gain each day the knowledge of those who are arrogant and of those who are ignorant
By; Devi Ramsaran 2017
