Deadly Attraction
I remember you loving me like you never did before
Before that dreaded moment of you walking through that door
Door to my heart I opened and the walls you penetrated
Penetrated by what I thought to be love, only to be degraded
Degraded to the lowest of lows, taken from the highest of highs
Highs accompanied by mundane mornings and never-ending numbing nights
Nights and days passed, were gone forever, ones that made me superior
Superior to those who were not in love, those who are inferior
Inferior to the feelings I had and still have for you
You, the love of my life, the one I see in my future too
Too soon, it was for me to fall in love so quick
Quick to say the three words and then it was time to quit
Quit fooling myself, quit thinking about these deadly feelings
Feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness to my heart they cling
Cling triumphantly, tugging and squeezing, leaving me so very lonely
Lonely with my miserable thoughts, exposing my vulnerability
Vulnerability because you were with me but your mind was not there
There you were in your mind, body and soul, but I wanted you here
Here, I was trying to believe just how much you love me
Me, the one you pursued and told people we were meant to be
Be my best friend, my passionate lover and my dutiful wife
Wife of mine, the one who I have decided should share my life
Life so promising in those wonderful words uttered from your lips
Lips of temptation and words of deceit issued from movie scripts
Scripts through which you seemingly poured out your heart and soul
Soul of innocence and truth replaced by a dark, empty and gaping hole
Hole so enormously fed by lust, greed and insecurities
Insecurities which fed on the love I once thought was to be
Be my knight, save me from myself and save me from you
You, who despite warnings from friends, may need saving too
Too long we have pretended to be the perfect couple
Couple of idiots, now we have to sift through this rubble
Rubble that resulted from the crumbling walls of our love
Love with a flame that burned brightly as a message from above
Above all others, fighting against all odds, it turned quickly into murderous hate
Hate for me, growing hate for you, is the masterpiece I intend to create
Create a canvas just for you, with loads of malice and serious contempt
Contempt that will continues to build towards suicidal attempts
Attempts fueled by murderous intentions only awaiting the plan
Plan of your death and mine which must be an event so grand
Grand affair that must be done with due care and attention
So perfectly, artistically mastered that definitely must be mentioned
Mentioned daily, monthly and yearly in the local news
News of the kill of a lifetime that should be awarded 5-star reviews
Reviews of its gruesome, gory, grief-inducing details
Details will be told of these crazy, cryptic, critical tales
Tales that would make blood drip instead of sweat from your brow
Brow-beating tale, how it ends? No one but God knows and understands how